Adieu

God sent me to your life
to take it to the next level.
But you wanted to stay in the shallows.
Alright then.
One can excite an electron to a higher energy state
but it eventually settles down
in its own orbit,
if you get what I mean.

You were once the centrepiece of my life.
I dreamed of a future with you every single waking hour.
Your voice made up my day.
Your name sent a joyous thrill through my nerves.
You were like many others.
No special.
But I was tricked into believing
that our vibes matched.
I chose you over all others.
Trusted you with my soul.
And welcomed you to my life.
You almost had me.
I was yours.
But you let me go.
You were too practical and dry-hearted
in calling me a known stranger and moving on
and signing off and leaving me behind in tears.
Gonna never forget that feeling of unrequited love.
But remember you and you alone have to live
with your chosen one throughout life.
No wellwisher will live it for you.

Now I’ve permanently moved on.
Time is a great healer indeed.
I am completely healed.
I now look back and feel like I’ve dodged a bullet.
A bullet of constant quarrel and petty micromanaging,
money-minded, manipulative, gaslighting, tit-for-tat overthinking.
A bullet of chaos and lack of mental peace.
A bullet of a Cassius-mindset.

Infact life is now becoming meaningful and lively.
Don’t think I’m any less practical than you.
Sorry if I gave you the impression
that I was a soft, delicate or indecisive man.
I’m a man of solid integrity, tough and exact,
in words and deeds.
Losing you was the first time I tasted defeat.
But you didn’t win either.
You may realise it someday when age brings enough wisdom.
Or maybe never.
You’re a flower that once bloomed rich and intense in my mind,
now withered and lost away in the dusty winds of time.

Forlorn ! Adieu !
It was all a bad, long dream.
You were the protagonist in that dream.
Yet you were just an illusion, not a reality.
I woke up.
Pinch test !
Dream’s over.
Good morning.